July 30, 2010 at 11:49 pm (Uncategorized)

Doing laundry on a Friday night is generally not my idea of a great time, but I must admit that all alone at Sudzees is quite pleasant. Cartoons are playing in the background, the air smells like detergent, and I’m secure in the knowledge that in the next 10 minutes or so, my clothes will be clean. Next time I’m not waiting until I’m wearing my second to last pair of boxers. Who knows what might come up, and no one wants to get caught without clean underwear.

Another week is over. One week closer to football, to classes, to new adventures and the rest of my life. I can’t say that I’m ready for summer to end, because it’s been quite enjoyable. There is something thrilling, though, about the prospect of the future. That’s something that never goes away. Things are always imagined to be more than they are, and prospects of greatness or despair lurk around the corner. Reality shines a revealing light on the present moment. That brightness is wonderful in its own way; life would be boring if things happened just as you imagined they would.


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July 21, 2010 at 2:09 pm (Uncategorized)


I’m officially 20. Don’t feel particularly different, but i did cook up a sweet pasta recipe my mother sent me. Which I haven’t done at my apartment before. So perhaps that can be my grand transition. Today is shaping up nicely, though. Meeting this morning at 8, like every Wednesday, but the early start time is offset by the fact that it’s in Sister’s Brew. A little coffee and I’m ready to face the day. I kind of unabashedly took the day off soon after our morning meeting; David and Nancy are out of town and frankly outside of a few emails and things that needed doing, most of my stuff can wait until tomorrow. It’s been relaxing. Watched an episode of Monster Fish on the National Geographic Channel, and been doing some reading. Soon off to do a little bowling, followed by some volleyball, and then some singing with some of the PMA guys in Moscow.

In an effort to be more optimistic about this day,  I have decided to make a list.

TOP 5 Things About Being 20

1. I actually get to feel like an adult. For the past while when people ask my age, I would say something like “I turn 20 in 2 months.” 19 is a much easier answer, but I always felt it didn’t represent my actual age. They say age is just a number, and that’s true.I always prefer to not tell people how old I am, because they generally just assume I’m older. I still have kind of a baby face, but it seems like people treat you with a little more respect if they think you’re a little older. If my age doesn’t factor into other people’s first impressions, that’s fine with me.

2. Only one year away from being able to drink. I don’t plan on drinking all the time, but it feels like you’ve “arrived” as a person when you can sit down and order an “adult beverage.” I know when I was in Europe I never felt the urge to get out of control, but I did feel much older. It’s kind of silly, and doesn’t really matter, but it’s nice.

3. This whole list thing is harder than i originally anticipated. I really only had reason number one, and reason number two is more of a stretch. Must…remain…optimistic. Ok, here we go. 20 looks cooler than 19. Definitely. Let’s roll with that.

4. All my friends are going to start getting married. Some of them are planning on doing it (and had plans before I became 20) but now that I’m 20 it’s actually going to happen. Other people will fall in love and do it even if they don’t know it quite yet. I guess it’s just the age. I can’t decide whether it’s a good thing or not. I’m incredibly happy for these people and I want them to lead the lives of love and togetherness they deserve, but on the other hand I feel way too young still. How can they be ready? Maybe they’re just more mature than I am. I mean, I did just turn 20.

5. All right, last one. Thank goodness. Fortunately, these are just the top 5 things about being 20. Not like the best 5 things I could possibly have written, but the top 5. Which means top 5 things that came into my head? Sure, that works. I guess the last one would be that now that I’m 20, I’ll be graduating from college. This spring I’m scheduled to finish my undergraduate degree. A very weird thing to think about. In fact, that definitely is not a “best” thing about being 20. I’m going to miss this university, this town, and this people. Have to make the most of the next year and hope that perhaps in the spring I won’t be able to get the classes I need for some reason.

What a terrible post. Next stop is going to be making better lists. Look for that in future postings.

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Crooked Teeth

July 20, 2010 at 11:10 pm (Uncategorized)

I attended my uncle’s memorial service this past Saturday. It was nice, the weather cooperated (perhaps a little too much, I was sunburned), and pretty much the entire family was there to say goodbye.

I personally want a service where there are equal parts laughter and tears (or equal parts laughter and dancing on my grave, either way is ok with me). My parents want something ironic, like “Another One Bites the Dust” playing. My  sensibilities say that something more subtle would be appropriate…though nothing in particular comes to mind right away.
While it was nice to see family, it was a somber weekend to be sure. A bright spot was getting to visit with Mary Hourihan and Caroline Campbell while seeking out bubble tea in Lynnwood on Friday evening. It had been too long since I had last seen them.

Driving 10 or 12 hours over the course of a weekend gives you a lot of time to think about things. It also gives you a lot of time to listen to whatever music you feel like. Those two things are my favorite part, I think. I can listen to a song 3 or 4 times in a row and not have to worry about bothering my fellow passengers. I can also turn on something mellow and let my thoughts drift wherever they feel like drifting. I listened to a lot of Death Cab, both there and back. Something about it just lets me listen and then not listen so much to the music as to the stream of my own thoughts. It’s quite nice.

On Sunday, I finally got to meet Keith in person. If you aren’t aware, I’m interning for Keith Allred’s campaign this summer. He’s running for Governor of Idaho as a Democrat, but he’s very solidly independent. He is one of the most impressive, intelligent, and articulate people I have ever met. It was nice getting a chance to talk with him for a bit, and it was also lovely to listen to him talk to a crowd and answer questions. Some people just have “it,” you know? And Keith has “it” in spades. Everything you could possibly want in an elected official. I’m certain that he will win this fall, it’s just a matter of talking to enough people.

I turn 20 tomorrow. Well technically in about 50 minutes, I guess. 20 is such an uninteresting birthday. Sure, you’re not a teenager anymore, but for a lot of people, myself included, you haven’t really been a teenager for a while before. Of course I’m young, so maybe hanging out with people a few years older has skewed my perception of things. I can already vote, too young to drink for a year and too young to get reasonable car insurance rates for a bit longer.

Off to bed, up at 7:30, and then for my first coffee as an “adult.”

And you can’t find nothing at all if there was nothing there all along….

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