At the End of The World

January 20, 2014 at 10:50 pm (Uncategorized)

Just finished a really great book called “The Defining Decade,” by Meg Jay, which details all the reasons why your 20’s matter. Totally worth reading, but the tl;dr version is this: things aren’t just going to happen, go get them. It’ll make you happier.

That’s not really what I’m thinking about this evening, though. I’ve been thinking off and on for the past week or so about people that I used to be really close to, or have been close to for brief stretches of time, and how I’m no longer close to them. It’s an unfortunate but common thing, I think. Distance, divergent interests, or any combination of those things makes people drift away. I’m not here to say whether that’s a good or bad thing, it’s just something that’s been kicking around. Thinking about the ASB trips I’ve been on, or sports teams, show casts, relationships, etc. 

We’re all walking along our particular paths, and sometimes for a while our paths converge and we get to walk together for a while, and that’s really cool. I think that it’s a good metaphor for impermanence in all things: your relationships with other people come and go, but they are beautiful and meaningful while they happen. It’s not worth it to lament it, because life has a funny way of bringing people back around, or so it seems. Also, if you want to have a relationship with someone, YOU have to work and make it happen. It’s a two way street, obviously, but you can’t count on the other person to make the effort. That’s just part of growing up, I think.

It’s weird/awesome that we can peek into people’s lives via social media, but at the same time, that’s not really their life. It’s a super scrubbed version of their life. I know I have plenty of days that suck, and you know what I don’t do? Post about it on facebook. I post the good things, the fun pictures, not because I am consciously trying to have everyone believe that I have my life together and that it’s so great, but because I think a lot of us don’t like to air our struggles in a public forum. I don’t like posting negative stuff on facebook, I know. This blog is a much more balanced version of events. 

Anyway, so I have these daydreams sometimes, or I get this feeling where I’m nostalgic about things that haven’t happened yet. It’s odd. If you’ve done any acting/atmosphere work you might know what I’m talking about, where all of a sudden you’re feeling a certain way/in a different place just because you’ve somehow willed yourself there. It’s like I’ve skipped the next relationship, or adventure, or what have you, and am looking back on it. I think it’s strange, but that’s where I’m at sometimes. 


In unrelated news, I have Ingrid Michaelson’s discography on shuffle right now and it’s just about perfect. I highly recommend her if you’ve never listened before. 


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Seahawks are going to the Super Bowl!

January 20, 2014 at 10:23 am (Uncategorized) (, , , )

I woke up this morning, elated once again that my Seahawks are finally going back to the Superbowl after eight lengthy years and a lot of heartache. Looking at the responses online, though, I had just one question: are we the baddies?

There will be a lot of talk about Richard Sherman, about Pete Carroll, and Golden Tate, who I admit are guys you love on your side but rub you the wrong way if they aren’t. In the end, I think we definitely have some guys on the team who are not afraid to be the villains, which is kind of great. Peyton Manning gets to be the hero going against big bad Seattle (which I still can scarcely believe that I’m saying, even in 2006 the Hawks have never inspired such emotion countrywide), and sports are at their best when we can craft a narrative. It’s all live theatre, really. 

It’s a little difficult for me to reconcile because the Seahawks have been so mediocre for so long, and I don’t know how to deal with a) haters or b) these ridiculous bandwagon fans. I guess it’s a new challenge for me, and a lot of others. 

I think the thing people have to keep in mind is that it’s fine to get worked up about the game, it’s great to be passionate, but you have to let yourself come back down to earth. You can’t hold on to the anger and hate, or else it swallows you up. I have teams a strongly dislike, a la the Steelers, but I know it’s not their fault for that. They’re just the beneficiary of some bad calls in a Super Bowl that happened 8 years ago. I’ll never like them, but I can’t hold it against their fans. Who doesn’t want sustained success? Same thing for the 49ers. I don’t want them to beat us, but their fandom is equally valid. People turn these tiny slights into huge things, and as for that stupid post about the difference between Kaepernick and Wilson’s instagrams do people not realize that it’s an utterly cherry picked sample? Kaep does good stuff for his community as well. Dislike the player, but respect the person. 

It’s all about perspective. Just take an hour, cool down, and enjoy. And if you really want to make us the bad guys, well, I had better start growing out my Snidely Whiplash mustache, because I’m down to roll if it means we’re winning. 

I think it’s going to be a great game, and I 3elieve in Russell’s ability to take us to the promised land. Superbowl here we come!

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Go Pack Go!

January 2, 2014 at 10:49 am (Uncategorized) (, , )

Packing, packing, packing, packing…

It’s what I SHOULD be doing right now, but I felt like taking a break. It is fortunate for me that I have opened very few of my boxes of things over the past year at home. A constant internal monologue of “no, you’re leaving soon” has apparently served me well in this regard. That and living in a house full of stuff already; most of what I own would be a redundancy. 

A bunch of errands to run today, too. I have to get a haircut, go to the bank, retrieve all those still full boxes out of the garage, get the car cleaned up, go pick up the keys to my apartment (small detail), etc, etc. Nothing too difficult, but part of me is like “you’re finally not working, time for a vacation!” I’ll get a mini vacation, when I go up and visit family in about a week, so I should be more productive in the moment. It’s a bit of a struggle right now, but I’ll get there.

Kyle is coming to visit this weekend, which should be great. Haven’t seen him since Danny and Bethany’s wedding. It feels like less time, though, since we talk a lot through digital mediums. Still, excited to see him. 

Working my way through Under the Dome by Stephen King. It’s really good but at times makes me almost physically ache from all the awful things that happen to everyone. At times my inability to turn down the empathy makes it difficult to listen/watch/ready painful things. Fortunately it’s an audiobook, so I can pack and listen at the same time. I don’t think I’ve ever listened to a long audiobook before. The guy that does this one is fantastic, with voices for everyone. It makes you feel like it’s a stage show, almost. I’ve also been listening to a lot of public radio over the past 6 months or so, so perhaps I’m attuned to the medium. In any case, it works. 

Well, I should end my hiatus from being productive and get back to work. Cheers.

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2014: Day 1

January 1, 2014 at 3:29 pm (Uncategorized) (, , , , )

So, resolutions are a thing, I guess. 

I have seen a lot of resolution hate floating around, which I sort of understand, but not really. Because while yes, people often don’t keep their resolutions, sometimes you just need a definite start date, that little push to get you to begin. Sticking with your goals is difficult, but for me I think starting is perhaps even harder. There’s always a reason to start tomorrow, and the idea of a new year and a fresh start might be the catalyst some people need to succeed. I guess if I went to the gym all the time, it might be annoying to have it be incredibly crowded during the month of January, but to me it’s all the more reason to encourage people to stick with their goals rather than tell them there’s no way they will keep with it. We’re all in this together. 

Anyway, I have a few things I would like to accomplish this year. Here they are, in no particular order:

  • Be kinder to myself, and work on being OK with just being me instead of what anyone else thinks I should be
  • Finish the Vancouver USA Marathon (bonus goal: average under 11 minutes/mile)
  • Do at least three things outside my comfort zone
  • Want to say no, and say yes instead
  • Go hiking more often. In fact, just spend more time outdoors
  • Be honest, be open, be communicative
  • Tell the people I love that I love them
  • See at least 10 concerts
  • Get to know people who are incredibly different than I am, and become great friends anyway
  • Learn something new every day
  • Laugh every day

So there you have it. It is my sincere hope that everyone achieves whatever goals they have for the new year. I just would ask that you remember that we can each make the world a little better or a little worse this year. Let go of the hate, let go of your preconceived notions, and open yourself up to all the great things that can happen when you just resolve to be nice to your fellow human persons.

Happy New Year!


“I have never heard anything about the resolutions of the apostles, but a good deal about their acts.”
-Og Mandino 

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